i have come into my own. here i am. i am showing up and i am present. shalom. my weekend was okay. i was waiting for my love but my surprise date got postponed to this weekend :)) i told the love of my life to surprise me with what we do next, once i get home from camp… i know i’m going to SO wonderfully surprised and elated. so i’ve been preparing for that. i’ve learned that during this time of waiting. i have been in love since may 2017. we hung out once and i fell in love, then we didn’t see each other again since this JUNE 2020! we went to the island and then in july went to the zoo. it was absolutely amazing. i have to put my whole entire faith in God right now as this is who God has promised me. i feel that extremely deeply in my soul. i’ll updated you guys on my relationship :)) THANK GOD FOR THE DELAY! Y’ALL what is for you will ALWAYS be for you. what God has set shall never fill void. nothing is going to stop a kingdom marriage. Lord grow me and elevate me to the next level. prepare me for my kingdom spouse. i surrender. Lord let me seek my spouse IN MY CAREER! i want to bring the fullest of myself for my love.
i am going to continue opening up with you guys this week. this is the most important week of my life. even with my birthday next week… this is the week. my love is coming to pick me up saturday with the intention on giving me the best day of life. thank you. thank you. i gotta be strong, i gotta grow and i gotta increase my faith in you God.
Moreover, i had so much fun playing GTA V with matthew. running sooooo good on my 16″ MacBook pro ayyeee. been eating some good ole’ sweet potato and key lime pie. alright yeah! bye guys! haha
SEPTEMBER! my favorite month! my birthday coming up quick. i was suppose to fast today but God told me i could get so i had fried cauliflower, ice cream, Arizona, chicken mhmmm had a perfect light balanced meal thank you God. my new apple watch band came and i love it ah! today i was setting up my lights for my room and i messed up hehe but im going to finish that tonight. been trying to catch up on my blog like everyday but today is the start. this week has been critical on my spiritual transformation. i lot stuff from my past, limiting beliefs and i became really aware of my mind and have been trying to redirect myself. my love is coming tomorrow and i’ve been trying to stay grounded. i’m getting the biggest answer of my life soon. saw Lance like two days ago and we watched the Lion King. super fun. i loved that movie. i saw the remake in theaters 4 times and i want to watch the original again already just like i did when i was one year’s old and that was my favorite movie. next week for the rest of this month i’m going to be trying new things to center myself in Lil Joe. so i’ll keep you guys posted on everything that’s going on from here on out. i have a clear mind which is the biggest blessing for me to say. my room is about to be SICK. lemme just edit this video and it’ll be clear skies. try to talk to you guys before i get to bed tonight. i missed you!! i am really joyful to be blogging. this is my peace. i love you.
POSTED MY FIRST YOUTUBE VIDEO AAYYYEEEE! INTRO TO LIL JOE.
had a super fun photoshoot with lance today! MY NEW WALLET CAME!! i’m literally obsessed. filmed an unboxing and yuh. went to andiamo’s for dinner and gosh lee the best pasta i’ve had in my life. so good. thick homemade noodles, nice and firm. thick sauce. the best kind. super happy i love my life!!
hey you guys! it has been a long time my goodness! my apologies. i had an incredible transformation era. i was a camp counselor for three weeks!! i got a brand new 16″ MacBook pro!! so much!
most importantly camp was so super amazing. i went to SpringHill and it was the most perfect best 3 weeks of my life. it is so crazy that i am out of that life omg. i have the three best most loving group of boys and they didn’t give me any problems at all. angels. we did so many fun activities. we went zip-lining, blobbing, i did the giant swing which was the funniest thing ever, canoeing, rock climbing, slip n slides, ate good lowkey no we ate good fr. that hot chocolate omg. i made such amazing friends!! TAYLA MATTHEW AND TREVOR AND JOEL!!!! UNREAL! SAWYER MOLLY I LOVE YOU! so much super fun. omg camp was unreal. i love it. i grew so much. i’m about to read the bible this year now, i can’t wait.
gosh lee, so incredible. so i went to my aunt’s house for a weekend and omg her house is so spectacular so nice. i love it. we ate good, i had so much chinese lo mein and rice. but anyways, i wanted to start a gofundme to get a new computer and before i made it, i bought my MacBook pro 16″!!! i love my new computer so much aaahhhh i can’t believe i have such a powerhouse. i can put my specs somewhere later. but yea so right after i bought it, i made my gofundme and i raised $950!!! THANK YOU GOD!!! AAAHHHH SO AMAZING, truly thanks to my mom ENTIRELY! THANK YOU MOM I LOVE YOU! my mom is so kind.
so as i got home, i got to open a ton of packages which was so much fun! i got some rose galore from moonxcosmestics which is working really well and shark sauce which really really transformed my skin. i had to clean my house since i’ve been home honestly, resting. getting back on track and to the next level!
oh before camp i went to the zoo which was really fun. best day ever. my favorite animals were the giraffes, lemurs and rivers otter. i loved it. then i went to christian’s house and got on the boat with sami and ava and matthew!!! so much fun! i had a blast. brought my life jacket and even took a dip hehe! so yea really good memories before camp and after! i’ve been hanging out with ava and sami a lot which has been joyful. we went to papparoti which my goshhhhh was so good damnnn!!! i got the nutella bun and just yum yum and then got the best grilled cheese!! the day before we went to california pizza kitchen and i got the kids alfredo, thai pizza and key lime pie. all which were amazing. and then even before that i got a dairy queen blizzard with just sprinkles yummm. and then ate my cracker barrel catfish which dumplings and mac cheese so good. i been eating really really good since camp. as i deserve, thank you God.
life has been really amazing and i got blessed so much in july to now it’s indescribable. chicago, up north and literally met my two best friends, new camera, best time at the zoo, life-changing time being a counselor, new computer!! AirPods replaced. GOFUNDME SUCCESS. ate so super good. worked hard on my blog! and tried my best.
i am worthy to soar to the next level and that may mean leaving behind the turkey’s and that is expected! i am so happy to be in a place of solitude where i can focus on God and myself. really excited for the future. really excited to talk to you guys everyday. i am so happy to meet you all be able to connect on such an intimate level. my heart fills with so much joy. i am doing my best!
best advice:
don’t let anyone have the power to BOTHER you in any way. no more mere mortal should have any power over you and make you feel AS IF YOU SHOULD CRY!? oh no absolutely not. no one has anyone power to even bother me or get me out of character.
you are forgiven! repent and you are forgiven. you are given, grace in love. i dwelled on a problem from june that i have BEEN redeemed for. blessed more than i have ever been from that trial. i am forgiven. i am worthy. peace is within us all 🙂
first day i’ve had entirely to myself in like a week maybe even two. i am being soooo productive and i caught on a lot. I AM SO PROUD OF YOU JOE! I LOVE YOU. YOU ARE DOING GREAT! i love being by myself so much. halfway through my day i’m about to run and learn how to use final cut pro! i love you guys so much. if u see this, say “i’m proud of you joe!!!”
my fucking best friend syd aaahhhh!!! i don’t even cuz but i had to. so syd invited me to her friend’s boat today and of uh of course!! so i got ready for allat BUT it was a storm today… i met her friend gg and then we met her friend kam. super bad bitches. they were awesome and so kind. kam is exactly how i would want my daughter to be. boogie, beautiful, classy. boat day postponed. we ended up going to the market and i got a chocolate croissant and THAT was good. syd ended up coming back to my house and we chilled and i filmed myself giving myself freckles. they didn’t quite show up correctly so i have to do it again but gosh i LOVE FILMING!!!!! syd’s friend maya came and she was so tall and beautiful and just got engaged and a new car!!! so awesome to see someone living the life i want. immaculate day.
HUGE COLLAB!!! THE START OF MY ENTIRELY NEW LIFE! gosh i had the most amazing day with syd and yurika. so syd just got back to michigan from atl so we hung out right away! i met her at camp at springhill then both went to MSU so literally my best friend. i love her. and i met yurika at OCC in 2018. yurika fr just randomly called me to see what i was doing and BOOM! we hung tf out!!! went to belle isle and had a blast!! this syd & yurika’s first time ever meeting and they CLICKED! cuz syd knows so many people from u of m. but yes we chilled. ate some pizza and filmed!! ugh so much fun! SOOO MUCH FUN!!!! i am so happy to have been with my NEW friends.
left bright and early at about 6:30am! took a lil nap. woke up cuz we got pulled over hehe. nun but speeding. went to get sum McDonald’s as was on my way home. unboxed a ton of packages and then rested. the start of my messed up sleep schedule cuz i was sleep from like 5-3am. and stayed up the whole next day.
woke up and went on a hike! literally had to go up a sandy dune to get my breakfast today. thankfully jennifer came and i got to have my syrupy bread yummm! took the FATTEST nap rest sesh from 11-4. hit the city afterwards and met drake aka BIG BOONE! that is my FUCKING NIGGA! i love him gosh damn. real asf, funny asf, cool asf, the kinda guy everyone wants to be like. so kind. but we chilled and exchanged information.
july 6
went to the pool with our new friends and this was at like midnight. took the trippiest experimental pictures and they came out sick. so happy i had my chain for this trip omg. huge piece of me. the cutest fattest dog came about too aweee love EVERYONE i met this trip. hey rachel, guidi and presto! literally went to bed and i think i slept slept! like til 10 or 11 or so then went to the shop with jennifer. ate a frosty from wendy’s yum. super tired today though fr. my angels had a huge battle to fight to MAKE SURE THE NIGHT WENT PERFECT! we went to a restaurant that i forget the name but it was THE BEST LOBSTER EVER! literally my first time getting a lobster roll but it was so super good. this was after going to the beach and all i did was nap on the beach lol. so we’re planning to meet back up with Big Boone and chileeee it literally worked out flawlessly. thank you God. so he got a ride from maybe a stranger lmfao and then he brought his friend ashton.
so once everyone came, the vibe was prime. my song ETA by Justin bieber came on and they said turn that shit off BUT then i started singing and preforming and they LOVED ME! Ashton wanted me to sing next to him and omg i was so happy. the pop star in me jumped. but yes we GOT INTO IT AND VIBED CHILEEEE!! i had an amazing deep conversation with ashton and that was honestly my first. LIKE DEEP! Ashton is much ahead in his spiritual journey than me and he guided me soooo much and just made me so connected and aligned to my purpose and everything. i LOVE him. he reinstated a lot. like i knew how IMPORTANT GRATITUDE IS but when he said it outloud it was like that was the missing piece i needed. my gratitude is not there like i thought. i HAVE SO MUCH TO BE GRATEFUL FOR!!! EVERY POSITIVE FEELING EVER! he taught me to change the world, i must change myself. and he believed in me. literally loved me, him and drake. told me i was beautiful. i literally read my prayer to him and it ROSE MY VIBRATION SO HIGH LIKE I WAS IN THE ROOM WITH MY SON! THANK YOU GOD FOR THIS WEEKEND AND TRIP AND DIVINE CONNECTIONS LORD!!!!
july 7
this is my spirit guide ashton. the other guy is andrew. i got a good 3 hours of sleep before having to pack the airbnb. only took about an hour and it fr wasn’t bad. dropped off our new friends and it was just surreal. we went to culvers and rory and i got cheeseburgers. it was okay. a bit too much. so once we got dropped off we needed somewhere to stay but it was a bit of a mess to say the least. so we got an inn. another mess because rory did NOT want to go in lmao, and all power to her but me & jennifer trying to enjoy our vacation. i literally just had a vacation omg. thank you God. it was so amazing to find people who SEE my value, worth, energy, everything. those are the people i want to be around. ashton drake and andrew all came but drake just gave us a goodbye hug. which was PERFECT. so magic. then we hung out with Ashton and andrew MA BOYS!! all good vibes. all love. really needed that final with my spirit guide. he was thinking of the things he learned to tell me and just i am so happy and grateful.
the best vacation i’ve ever had, right up there with savannah omg! I WENT ON TWO VACATIONS ALREADY THIS YEAR! SAVANNAH, GEORGIA and MANCELONA, MICHIGAN!
it’s so awesome that people do not fuck with independence day…. independence day was truly juneteenth last month! jennifer is going to truly make this HER DAY completely entirely these next 10 years. i am all dolled up and feel amazing. going to be the best day ever.
made it up north safely! after eating dinner with jennifer and her family. we packed up and tensions were already high with the retrograde+full moon combo. and me whispering to her mom did not help! we had a bit of trouble finding our airbnb in the dark and delayed us an hour. BUT OUR AIRBNB IS AWESOME!!! SO SPACIOUS. SO LUXURIOUS. we ended up staying all night long and mind u we got in the airbnb at 2:30 in the morning. long 4 hour drive.
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