11/7/25
started both my new jobs! almost, technically — but i had orientation for my server job, and i started my hosting job yesterday. everything went really good, actually. it was still challenging and somehow perfect for what i needed for my serving job. i Am definitely trying to stay there, at least until i’m done training to be a server. the name of the game now is to observe, and i am watching. i am thinking.
now that i’m home, i’m going to clean up and film my tik tok’s for today. oh — i ate a real egg and cheese croissant today, from cannelle. it was so real. so happy i did that, because that was honestly the highlight of my day.
moving differently now
not the day i thought it would be, but that’s okay. i Am just going on another level than the people around me, and i don’t have time to stick around anymore. i am fully grown, and i was nice for my whole youth. i lived my life for everyone else. but that is pickle juice. like, if i’m sitting there being handed pickle juice and then drinking it — stop. it’s insanity.
so i am leaving my home soon, just like when i moved to california before, and i’m going to have to stand up and be an adult again. everything is coming together for a reason, and I can’t go back down to that low level. that’s not even reality for me anymore.
everyone can’t come with you
everybody is not gonna come with you. the door is only fit for one. it’s better to be with yourself than in bad company. i’m not going to be stressed out anymore — hateful, vengeful, angry, mean — never, ever. that’s not even me.
i don’t want to cry. i want to move on with my life.
i’ve been nothing but disrespected, but somehow you want to see me as respectful? it’s never going to make sense. and to take advantage of a child is gross as well. i was nothing but a sweet boy, completely different, fully aware. just straight-up neurodivergent, and i was punished for that.
the real tea is that sometimes you were always getting abused for who you are.
bye bye,
Lil Joe
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